Some happiness….
I find I have so many things I want to write about I just don’t know where to start. It seems so much in my life has been hard and negative lately I just really don’t even want to address it. So today I thought I would share some of my recent happy moments.
I feel like the main words I say to my children during any given day are please don’t, no, stop, ect. I know they need to discipline but I am simply sick of saying no!!!! So I have randomly started saying yes to some of those crazy toddler requests and it feels WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!! For example the other day Aidan asked me for cookies for breakfast and I could tell by the look on his face he knew the answer would be no, so I said sure just today. He couldn’t believe it, the wonder and joy on his face nearly brought me to my knees. Then when I actually gave him the cookies, well let’s just say I will never forget that expression on his face. It brought me pure joy much more than those cookies did him I am sure. And then a couple of nights ago Vivian just didn’t want to go to bed alone, she was in a cuddle mood. I try hard to follow good sleep practices for the kids, and she would have gone to sleep if I had followed the routine, but really I just wanted to cuddle her too. So I held her and rocked her until we fell asleep together in the recliner where we slept until 2am when I woke up and laid my beautiful peacefully sleeping daughter in her bed. I would really be happy to do that every night.
I am also really enjoying blogging. I have found many others who have similar experiences in life as I do and it has helped me find new ways to cope with my own difficulties. I have found myself laughing more often than not and taking away a lot of inspiration from others.
Vivian is begining to speak more clearly the last week or so. Now I can understand a lot more of her words. She has very polietly thanked me and blessed me several times in the past few days. Very precious. She is also becoming a little more of a mama’s girl. Now I know she really still is a daddy’s girl at heart but I really was beginning to think she didn’t care if I was around or not. I am starting to feel much better about that.
It’s consignment sale season and I really love buying girl clothes!!!!! They are all so very cute. Poor Aidan hasn’t gotten many clothes yet. The bigger they get it seems the worse the boys clothes are but I have found him a couple of really cute things. I have two georgeous coordinating outfits for them to wear for spring pictures which I think I will have made next week. I just can’t wait. They are both adorable and take beautiful pictures. I’ll attach one below just so you know it not just my mother’s opinion.
I took my grandmother to buy new shoes and everyone made it home unharmed and no one was arrested. You can’t know how happy that made me unless you know my grandmother…..just trust me it was a miracle.
My husband is always sharing news tidbits and funny stories with me that I really enjoy and I have been trying lately to find some things to share with him too. We are sort of in a who can find the better story contest and it has been very entertaining.
All in all I have many things to enjoy each day. All too often though the difficult things, aggrevation and required tasks find ways to take over and push the joy to the bottom. I am making a purposeful effort to stop that from happening. Each day I am trying to stop frequently and find some immediate joy to share with someone I love even if it is just for a minute. And if I loose sight of that goal I can just come back here and be reminded. Again…I am loving blogging.
